I don’t often write personal posts, but last weekend I lost my grandmother and it made me think a lot about health and illness, life and death.

It was 91 and my only remaining grandparent. She taught me to play and paint chess, and was significantly involved in my faith.

Although I am very sad to have lost her, I am grateful because this was the first time that I said goodbye to a grandparent. We have to say all the things you regret. The things we should all remember to tell our loved ones every day.

We have to say “I love you” and remember all the good memories. She met her latest great -grandchild.

In the last conversation that I had with her when she was surrounded by all her children and grandchildren, she said something that really appeared to me:

“I accepted it and I am in peace.”

It became clear to me that not many of us can say that in the end and it really thought about the reasons why we do things in life.

The real goal?

It seems that in life the things that now seem such a big deal are not so important in the long run …

In these last conversations with my grandma, she spoke about how grateful she was for each of her children and how proud she was. She was very big in helping others and was glad that all of her children had done this in any way in her life.

Do you know what wasn’t said in these last conversations? Things like “If I had only lost this last clothing size after a baby” or “If I not only had these stretch strips with wearing my six children.” There was no regret that no more money, more clothing and more possessions.

In the end, the most valuable goods are time in life. You can (hypothetically) earn more money or replace possessions, but we all get every 24 hours a day as long as we are here on Earth.

When it matters, the reason why we strive to be healthy can not be so that we fit in the same size of the college, or so we have flawless skin (although these can be great side effects to be healthy) , but so that we can have more time to enjoy the blessing of this life and health and energy in order to be able to live it as well as possible.

I hope that God-Willing can do it until 91 or older, that I can also say that I am in peace, surrounded by those I love. In the meantime, I will try to be as healthy as possible, not so that I can look in a certain way or fit into a certain size of the clothes, but that I have energy and health to the best woman and the best woman Being and making a mother …

And so that I can hear the precious (and sometimes not so precious) of small feet for many days (and sometimes at 5 a.m.

Because at the end of life are things that don’t matter, things like:

• My bank account set
• What size do I wear
• How many things have I started
• How many people knew who I was
• What other people thought of me
• How clean was my house
• How much work I did

But the important things are those who do not seem to have worthwhile in today’s world:

• The moments that a baby cuddled while I could clean instead
• Great conversations and time spent with my husband
• The Goodnight kisses
• The thousands of diapers changed
• The Boo Boos kissed and repaired
• People I helped
• The relationships that I have encouraged over the years
• The common meals for the families who spent together only enjoy the company of the other

I try to be healthy so that I can see how these little feet go one day and then walk down the corridor. So that I can be there for all important moments in my children’s life and one day my grandchildren can meet.

In the end I think it comes to love. No love in an abstract way “Everything we need is love” Beatles-Art, but love in the self-opposed, sacrificial and daily decisions that we make.

Love is not only an emotion that we feel, but also a daily decision that we make … and maybe the most important thing we can hit. It is not only the root of faith and relationships, but also the things that are really important in life. A new mother loves her baby not only because of an emotion (although it is certainly also), but from the desire for the well -being of her child, a self -ginging, promotes love, where nothing is expected in return.

From my relatively short time on Earth, I can say that these are the things that let me in peace and fulfilled … The times and relationships in which love is not just an emotion, but a self -provided choice. I can imagine that at the end of life these are also the things that enable us to say that I am in peace.

When mother Teresa placed so eloquently on the wall of her house for orphaned children in India:

What is your motivation? Why are you trying to be healthy? Share below!